SECRET-BEING. ANGEL ARTIST.: 2019

Wednesday 31

Edward started on steroids. Buildings inspector calling at 11 AM. Cry Shop...

8.30.AM. Blue sky with patchy cloud also wind, no sunshine yet. Cool in the bed room. Edward up. He is pain free at present. My hair colour is dark blond. I will have to get used to the colour. A wonderful very hot day. Edward is in bad mood; I felt tired and sad that Anne's last day is tomorrow. Lucy is very sun burned, her baby bump has grown. Edward is eating most of the day. He is aggressive and wants attention all the time. I feel so tired. When ever I feel relaxed for a little while it is so very good. I have felt some peacefulness this week with Anne and Lucy, Edward always steals my peace. I long to feel peacefulness but Edward always disturbs me. He cant let me rest. I want to rest and dream without aggression and stress, I feel so tired. I long for a cigarette of two... I am having to swallow hay fever tablets every day for my stuffed up runny nose.