18: 12 Friday

I feel so down. Waves of depression attacked me descending on  my shoulders and down into my tummy while  travelling home on the bus.  We had had such a pleasant day together Edward and I we had planned to go on a round the island boat  trip  but high winds caused the trip to be cancelled.

  I am sorry for myself that is not a good sign there must be something very wrong with me .  My own thoughts upset me, it is my thinking about life that brings me down. I don't know what to do about myself, I am my own worst enemy, I need some help.