TUESDAY 30

6.26 am.  Drizzling rain...

  Dreamt...I had gone to visit Betty who has had a stroke in hospital.  She sat up right in her hospital bed which was a recliner.  She was very lively and did not look ill.  I was so pleased to see her.  She looked so slim wearing a lacy black top with white.  We talked animatedly she seemed very young and happy we were mostly fondly repeating and saying, " Good by to each other".  Now that i am awake waves of depression are filling me.  I feel so very sad.  I love Betty.  I don't know if she has died.  But my dream indicates that possibly she has.  I will miss her letters and decorated envelopes that have been so regular over the passed eight years.  Also I dreamt I had to take an exam, Edward took me to meet a man on a horseback the animal knelt down a long side  the kerb for me to mount up .

   Dark grey clouds.  The bedroom is full of shadows as out side it  is so dark and wretched from rain almost all night long.   Rain. All together my sister, myself, Lucy and Bailey we walked  around St Helier shops.  Lunching in Marks and Spencer where Edward joined us.  Anne cut my hair and did the colour it looks very dark  an all over mid-blond tint, as a gift.