11.20 AM. FRIDAY 3 JANUARY 2014.
Grey sky punctuated with cloud and a smear of deep blue.
Both of us awoke at six, I lay staring up at the ceiling unable to resettle with the pain in my left knee. Edward got cross with me squirming about and flapping the duvet to cool my burning skin.
Back pain haunts me day and night waking me just now it is always ready to surprise me when I least expect it. Caused by my gait I have one leg longer than. According to our dentist my jaw is out of line which is an indication the whole of my left side is out of kilter. He advised a diagnosis's by an osteopath would help me to understand the full extent of the unalinement of my skeletal frame.
He advised jaw realinement by means of dental wiring insisting that my quality of life would improve immensely. Demonstrating how by my clenching my jaws together so that they are positioned correctly I gain strength in my left hand giving it a much improved grip.
He advised jaw realinement by means of dental wiring insisting that my quality of life would improve immensely. Demonstrating how by my clenching my jaws together so that they are positioned correctly I gain strength in my left hand giving it a much improved grip.
His words reminded me of an incident in my childhood when I was punched in the left hand side of my skull by mother.
I remembered clearly the freezing January day I was four years old and she beat me so hard I heard a click in my head and recalled the shock and vision of flashing green stars as they happened while Mr Pollard was talking. I vomited and was screaming so loudly she grabbed me forcing and holding my head under the cold tap letting the water run until I was gasping and shivering then throwing me on the floor she left me soaking wet in the corner of the room for the rest of the afternoon.
I remembered clearly the freezing January day I was four years old and she beat me so hard I heard a click in my head and recalled the shock and vision of flashing green stars as they happened while Mr Pollard was talking. I vomited and was screaming so loudly she grabbed me forcing and holding my head under the cold tap letting the water run until I was gasping and shivering then throwing me on the floor she left me soaking wet in the corner of the room for the rest of the afternoon.
It was after that incident I developed pain in my legs and back diagnosed as rheumatism, I was unable to walk unaided for months. Dad had to carry me, later making a walking stick by trimming the handle down of a green and white striped child's yard broom. I rested the head end, the brush under my left arm using the handle as a walking stick.
It was at that time the pain in my left ear began resulting in many operations and stays in hospital right up to this date.
Dreamt...I was at home in the high rise council flat of my passed talking animated film gossip with Anne, Colin and others when there was a disturbance in the kitchen our mother had arrived. In a panic I advised our visitors to leave hastily which they did. Confronting mother in fear of her anger she surprised me by being nice. Seated as she was at the kitchen table she presented me with a litre bottle of water labelled Purina then disappeared and I woke up.
Dreamt...I was at home in the high rise council flat of my passed talking animated film gossip with Anne, Colin and others when there was a disturbance in the kitchen our mother had arrived. In a panic I advised our visitors to leave hastily which they did. Confronting mother in fear of her anger she surprised me by being nice. Seated as she was at the kitchen table she presented me with a litre bottle of water labelled Purina then disappeared and I woke up.
My finger nails are breaking with so much typing.
11.10 PM. I am in bed having worked all day trimming photo's of June and I taken on our 2010 Swiss holiday by Alan. Edward sat in the rocking chair watching television all day in the dining room. The bright sunshine made the outside of the house appear very inviting but the wind persisted relentlessly all day giving all who ventured out side a through thrashing.
12.30 PM
The sky is a deep blue and the sun is shining lighting up the house fronts along the road as far as I can see through the bedroom window. Edward is in the lounge watching television. I am able to hear the midday new's through the floor. He cooked me breakfast, two brown toast and cup of coffee so good of him. His patients wont hold out for much longer for attention as he wants to go out somewhere in the sunshine.11.10 PM. I am in bed having worked all day trimming photo's of June and I taken on our 2010 Swiss holiday by Alan. Edward sat in the rocking chair watching television all day in the dining room. The bright sunshine made the outside of the house appear very inviting but the wind persisted relentlessly all day giving all who ventured out side a through thrashing.
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