AFTER MY BATH I CUT MY TOE NAILS ADDORNING THEM WITH BURNT ORANGE NAIL VARNISH. SHAVED MY LEGS SLATHERING THEM WITH KATH KIDSTON WILD ROSE BODY CREAM. I LOVE THE PERFUME OF ROSES.

28 SATURDAY

I  am very disappointed there has been no message from Catherine, I feel very hurt.  She has let me down and I am sad about her behaviour towards me after all the stress she put me through about money lately.  Edward feels very healthy at the moment due to his steroid treatment, he is so much easier to live with  and has worked very hard in our garden all this week mowing the lawn twice.
 Finished reading the romantic paranormal novel Times Legacy by Barbara Erskine and enjoyed a fascinatingly good read.

10.11 AM. Grey sky bright day light with a promise of sun to follow hopefully.  Slept on sofa bed in my studio.  There was a heavy rain squall earlier this morning while Edward was making his breakfast down stairs in the kitchen with me still fast asleep.   My new bedside reading is novel "Left Behind." also a successful film.   Mrs Doreen Taylor just left number ten across the road from our house to walk to the bus stop for the 10.26 bus into Town.  She is 94 such a pert little lady with good health and much savvy  quite unexpected for her age.  I have a heavy chesty cough and blocked nose still and my voice comes out as a croak when ever I speak.

WHEEL ANGEL ART WORK

LOVE IS OUR PERMENENT NATURE, SO IT ISN'T AN EMOTION, BECAUSE EMOTIONS CHANGE AND SWITCH. LOVE IS ALWAYS THERE.

WHEN YOU HAVE TO MAKE A DECISION BETWEEN TWO DIRECTIONS, TAKE THE PATH THAT BRINGS YOU CLOSER TO YOUR LIFE'S MISSION.

Angelic words.

Angel art work

INTERNAL VIOLENCE TOWARDS THE SELF APPEARS IN FORMS SUCH AS SELFDEGRADATION; GOSSIP

GOSSIP

GOSSIP SEPARATES BEST FRIENDS AND IT CAN CAUSE YOU TO LOSE YOUR GOOD REPUTATION.

First ask are you certain it is true.

Second is it something good.

Third is it something useful.

Because if it is not true, good or useful why talk about it.

ANGEL ART WORK

REVERSING IN MY SILVER SMART CAR WITH GRAHAM. CAMAMILE TEA DRINKING FOR HEALTH INSTEAD OF COFFEE.

FRIDAY 27

10.00 AM.  Grey sky, wind.

 Charley across the road is cleaning  his car in the weak watery sun-light.  I have been sitting up in bed reading Harpers Bazarr October magazine issue, £4.20p it is a great glossy.  I still can't breath through my nose freely.  Our garden looks beautiful.  I picked a huge red eating apple of a branch from Grahams tree that overhangs the fence into our garden, it was juicy and tasted good when  bitten into it.

Dreamt... Mother and I were being stalked by a vicious tortoise or terrapin like creature with a heavy shell and scales on its legs and head.  It persistently pursued the both of us within our home environment crawling up table legs and along table top serfaces snapping its jaws, clawing and scratching at us.  We were terrified by it until mother eventually produced a mini black coffin into which we forced the animal  making sure it was dead by shooting  it with a shot gun.  I woke up feeling very disturbed and shocked by the whole episode...

WHEEL ANGEL

COUGHING HAS MADE MY LOWER BACK VERY PAINFUL.

THURSDAY 26

8.45 AM.  Cold grey sky.  Not a healthy sleep.  Pain in my left thumbnail and joint with stiffness and pressure in my left hand.  Sharp pains in my left ear probably caused by infection from this cold lingering on.  I have a persistent nasty cough accompanied by green phlegm pouring from my nose.  Edward has been kept awake most of the night by  his tremendous farts.  His tummy is bloated, the breaking of smelly wind has quite upset him, he coughed and farted all night long.  

Dreamt...My mother was screeching at me.  We were working at a grave side garden attempting to arrange it perfectly.  Later I was at home attending to the household cleaning when the plumbing broke down sending water gushing all over the home.  A large buffoon of a man was supposed to do the repairers but he was continually unhelpful and panic reigned.  A young child, a little girl who was playing in the water-closet rushed to inform me a huge hole had suddenly appeared in the bowel of the pail blue lavatory pan on which she was sitting.  I shouted at her and she collapsed instantly on to the floor showing a dirt smeared bottom.  All dirty little children in dreams are demonic or unholy baby angels sent to deceive the dreamer.

My voice is very croaky and my throat feels soar again.

ANGEL BY EDWARD STEPHENS

 

ESPRIT DE ST SAUVEUR, LA CLOCHE. Land line out of order. Edward had a dizzy spell while in the kitchen this morning.

25 WEDNESDAY

9.05 AM.  White cloud no blue sky to be seen at present.  Not a quality nights rest. Dreamt that I was with Paul O'Grady, Lilly Savage, we were talking and laughing companionably together.  I could not look directly at him. He was being very amusing and gave me a punnet filled with  strawberries but I refused to accept them from him even though they looked delicious.  Because they had been trimmed and I could see where the over ripe and dirty marks on the fruits had been cut away, they were not whole and unblemished fruits.  They looked  very  fresh tempting and colourful but no! 

 Fruit in dreams indicates money.  So in my dream I refused the gift of a substantial amount  of money at least the sum of £600 or more offered to me on a day in the future.  

When I have dreamt of eating, finding or being given fruit in the passed it had always had a positive out come.  Where by in life I have received a surprise  financial gift.  

 Apples have always materialized in an amount  of cash from pence up to £10 coming my way.  Red fruit represents much larger amount's of money arriving out of the blue. But as I refused to take the punnet of strawberries offered to me in my dream the money available to me in the ether will pass me by, by all accounts. How very sad, I shall miss out by being too selective or too careful in not taking the trimmed strawberries.  I am annoyed and saddened at my unusual behaviour.

9.30.AM.  Blazing  sunshine has broken through the white cloud, dark shadows.  Edward is deeply asleep with his arms clamped tightly around me as I write.

10. PM.  In bed.  A non-day.  I was so tired I spent the whole afternoon in bed reading The Lady magazine back-dates kindly given to me by Val.  Our telephone is out of order.  Maybe I am drained because I am not drinking coffee only hot water at present.  Edward eat crab meat for his tea and has spent most of the evening in the loo doing poos.  Email from Rosamund her trial in Canterbury Kent turned out OK in the end.  I think that  maybe I am depressed.    

WHEEL ANGEL

BIG SHOP AT WAITROSE.

24 Tuesday.

11.45 PM.  A very hot day lots of sunshine.  We drove to Waitrose supermarket to do a big shop of house hold items .  I have not drank any coffee for five days.  I still feel weak with low energy levels my cough is still heavy and my voice is tired and croaky. 

 Phone call from a very distressed Rosamund my sister who lives in  Salisbury England inquiring if I had heard from our sister Katy, Catherine from Singapore who she was due to meet up with in Canterbury, a four and a half hour drive from Salisbury.

I feel so very tired this cold has knocked me down energy wise I am feeling so very sweaty and hot, I have perspiration on my forehead and prickling me under the arms.

ANGEL MUSICIAN

EDWARD DIZZY SPELL. MY LOWER BACK IS PAINFUL TODAY.

23 Monday

10.35. AM. Breakfast in bed.  Cold grey sky.  I feel very tired I did not sleep well at all. I always feel drained with no proper sleep.  

Bobby and Val visited us yesterday afternoon. Their first visit since Anne and Lucy stayed with us for a holiday one month ago. 

I attended church with Jill in the evening. 

 I cleaned the wooden floors in our home with a wet mop and bucket also did a small amount of Angel art work.

10.00. PM. Bed. I feel so hot,  both my ankles are painful. House group meeting in St Helier.  I have a chesty cough. I feel so tired, my legs went all wooly under me as I walked along to the 99.Pence shop to buy  milk.  Edward attended his painting class.  I slept most of the evening in front of the television set. 

 No word from my sister Catherine in England from Singapore with her son.  I feel down the pain in my ankle is suspicious the veins are standing out and are a deep dark blue, I do hope my legs don't start swelling up.  My friend is being bullied by her daughter, she is very fragile at the moment with grief having been bereaved last April. 

 We have  all the upstairs windows wide open as I feel so very hot it is a mixture of depression and hot flushes.  I just want to sleep, rest and disappear...

 Informed the manager of Cry that I may not be into work on Wednesday because of my  bad chest and head cold. 

angel  violin player

SABER TOOTH TIGER.

FOREVER LIVING PRODUCTS. ALOE VERA 100% INNER LEAF GEL. I AM DRINKING FRESHLY SQUEEZED LEMON IN HOT WATER AS I HAVE A COLD. EDWARD IS OBSESSED WITH BELVITA BREAKFAST BISCUITS.

THURSDAY 19
Edward Adult Education class with David Brown the Jersey commercial ceramic expert.

6.55am. Grey sky.  Sitting up in bed drinking from flask and eating two Belvita sweet breakfast biscuits together.  I watched Grif drive away headlights blazing at 6.15 am while standing at the window he shot  up the road to feed and water his two horses.  Not a bad sleep woke at 4.am. to visit the loo and put on my fluffy dressing gown against the cold, I must dig out a duvet to use on the sofa bed instead of the cotton summer throw.  I have a head cold and am sneezing.  Edward is planning designs in his head for new clay projects while trying to sleep.  Obsession takes over for projects so easily while making and planning art.  I am developing a chesty cough. A blocked nose prevented me sleeping for ages during the night. I heard a baby crying it was extremely distressed in my psychic  while I lay in bed awaiting sleep.

ANGEL MOTIF

BUS VERY LATE THIS MORNING, WAITED HALF AN HOUR, JUST AS I GAVE UP AND CROSSED OVER THE ROAD IT CAME ALONG.

Divine appointment.
 The bus was late this morning so I got talking with a neighbour from across the road Mrs Taylor.  She is the first person I have met since arriving in Jersey who knew my late mother and grandpa.

ANGEL ART WORK

CRY CHARITY FOR CHILDREN IN RUMANIA. DRIVING LESSON WITH GRAHAM 10.00

18 Wednesday
Graham just telephoned we will not be driving to day as the roads are greasy with rain and the  traffic is heavy because of the rock fall at Mount Bingham causing road closure and huge tail back of commuter traffic.

Edward Adult Education class.  

8.36.am.  Rain.  Charley has just waved to me from across the road where he is sitting in his front room window seated at the table where he makes models for his grand children. 

 Hot coffee from my flask with one Belvita breakfast biscuit.  I had to consume cold-cure tablets to ward off my soar throat yesterday afternoon.  

There are nineteen years left,  then  I shall be as old as my mother when she died at eighty-six years of age.  This week had gone so quickly.  I did not do much work yesterday only scanned new stars with angels cavorting upon them.   At least I have made a start on my angel work after the long summer break, when I was forced to prepare and turn my studio back  into a bedroom for the use of my summer visitors.  I have been sleeping on the sofa-bed it is blocking the floor  space. The room is much quieter over looking our garden.  The atmosphere in the room is lighter then our master bed room where Edward and I sleep, it is also the room where Grandpa Wason my mothers father died.  My studio was my mothers bedroom most of her life.

  My cold is yet to develop, I cant feel any soreness in my throat at present but my nose is wet and my left ear  buzzing. 

 Edwards body is like a warm limpet wrapped around me.  The cold mornings have begun, I will be dressing strait from bed into my ski suit each day soon.

Cavorting Angels

CHURCHILL. THE POWER OF WORDS HIS REMARKABLE LIFE RECOUNTED THROUGH HIS WRITINGS AND SPEECHES READ BY MICHAEL JAYSTON.

MY BUTLER, BREAKFAST IN BED.
17 TUESDAY

10.33.am Phone call from Graham woke me after a very bad night.  No quality sleep, I swapped rooms and bed without  proper rest, I feel dreadful sleep eventually arrived at 4.30 am.  I have a soar area at the back of my mouth it feels rough and hurts, my facial skin feels tight and I was continually in and out of bed throughout the night visiting the water closet.  I forgot to record in my food diary our yesterdays meals also my journal was neglected for the first time this year.

  Grey cloud it has been raining the air is damp, Autumn appears to have arrived.  I felt cold on and off during the night.  Edward forgot to attend his Monday Adult Education Class.  Dreamt ...I was with my sisters Rosamund and Catherine out walking for the day when slimy green mud splashed up covering my foot and shoe I sat down to clean it off while they proceeded on ahead of me. On realizing I had been separated from them the trauma was unimaginable.  While searching for them frantically I became ill and disorientated  amoungst strangers who  began taking advantage of my situation all while I was carrying a  canvas bag with one shoe inside.   

11.00 AM  Beautiful breakfast in bed prepared and delivered by Edward to help me feel better.  I forget just how ill he is when he is so good to me.  He is far more domesticated about the house than I .  He loves to cook it is a pleasure to him to make coffee and prepare all my meals.  He is in the kitchen now whistling away making my coffee, it is like having a butler in the home when he is feeling well and happy...

JOANNE CASH YATES

GOREY FETE

15 Thursday AUGUST

6.59. AM.  Coffee and talking while lying in bed.  Bright sky and morning light.  There is a glow of pink light down the front face of the houses across the road as seen from our bedroom window.  Alan Fentons birthday today.  I want to photo the new trees I have recently planted in our garden as a record of their growth. 

 Release anger today let go of the desire for revenge! Release all hurts in the name of Jesus. 

 Dreamt... I attended a wedding...  Breakfast in bed a treat from my dear Edward.  Photographed the little fur tree and my baby Acer Palm in the garden.  Edward cleaned out the pool and installed a new water pump with a fountain in the upper fish pond it looks wonderful sparkling in the sunlight.  He also set up our pink raffia  umbrella as a sunshade on the patio .  Graham  phoned.  We caught the bus outside our house at 2.28 PM. for the trip to Gorey pier fete admission £6. each.  The atmosphere was great, we had a good time walking in the hot sunshine among all the stall and rides.  I bought us a Hog Roast roll with apple sauce each.  Edward bought long cool drinks in a hotel Bar.  Bus home 5.15PM. after a good day out.  I love Edward so much.  He worked very hard cleaning out the fish pond.  We both wore our special Over-Shade glass's to protect our eyes.  The colors are amazing they change the surrounding colours of the world fantastically.

VALENTINE CARD

RID YOURSELF OF THE DEAD BABY. SORROW IN YOUR LIFE.

MONDAY 16.
16:50.PM.  It is cold and is raining at the moment.  Our lawn looks so green just like a beautiful new carpet because of the weather.

10:00.AM.  Wind and dark cloud it had been raining all night.  A very bad sleep, hallucinations .  Woke at 4AM   Edward made hot drinks in thermos flasks.  My face is swollen with tiredness.  Very fine rain.  Dreamt...I had a dead newborn baby in a transparent carrier bag I was transporting with me everywhere.  My mother would interpret that dream scenario  as follows.  Holding a dead baby is nursing the sorrow in your life.  Carrying  it around with you  indicates that you have not worked through the grieving process successfully or completely.  That there is much more work in  the process you need to deal with and let go of.  The concert last night brought up issues with in me  that need to be dealt with by the Lord Jesus then healed and restored.  Sorrow is a deep big issue for all of us. 

VALENTINE CARD

PAIN IN MY LEFT KNEE AFTER CRAWLING AROUND THE FLOOR HOUSECLEANING .

Sunday 15

Ministry team prayer for the sick. 9.30. St Paul's church.  Coffee with Jayne after the church service. House work, I vacuumed and cleaned the sun-room became very tired.  Edward changed the bed covers and cleaned the bedroom and vacuumed the stair carpet. It was cold in the Church.  Pain down the  right side of my chest muscle.  Went to the Country and Western concert with Joanna Cash performing.  A complete surprise evening out with Jill. Everyone was talking about the concerts Joanna has given in Jersey this week singing evangelical Jesus songs  to  an amazing response with people coming forward to meet Jesus.  I really wanted to attend but had no way of getting to the venue without a car until Jill from the house group ladies decided to go along taking me with her to Uni-care Church it was a great night out.  I do not feel very well at all this evening, so very tired, with hot flushes.

MANDALA

JERSEY PARANORMAL SOCIETY. DO YOU THINK YOUR HOUSE MAY HAVE SPIRITS?

Saturday 14

7.37.AM.  Blue sky appearing through patchy cloud.  We are drinking hot lemon water.  Dreamt...I was cleaning up thick black oven grease naked to the waist in a factory.  I was very angry scrubbing wooden garden benches furiously Edward was also with me.  Charity lunch in town I walked around the shops then home.  Painted three stars with nail varnish to make them shine and stiffen the card.  Television and into bed by 10.00. PM.  Edward bought me glossy magazine Harpers Bazaar as a special treat.  wind and cold all day.

ANGEL MANDALA

foto-sound. Charing Cross, St Helier. JE2 3RP

13 Friday

9.25.AM.  White cloud, rain all night. Disturbing dreams.  Edward had stress dreams about bills for the phone calls during police inquiries £800 he was expected to pay. Itemized statements in great detail with photographs he was dismayed.  I also  was financially drained in my dream, walking on wet grass worried about having no money.  Later I was travelling on a 22 bus to a new area feeling very insecure and lost .  I wandered into a warehouse shop alone and was glad to turn around and see Edward approaching me he had come to find me...  I have a cough and have been sneezing frequently.  It is so good to be safely in our bed together, we can watch the world full of strangers passing by through the window from our bed while enjoying cups of coffee and tea from the Thermos flasks Edward prepared at 5.30 this morning early when he woke to visit the loo.

10.30.P.M. Rain. A quiet day. We bussed into town for Edwards Eye clinic visit.  Called in to the library,  sat in a cafe for coffee.  Back home I worked on my laptop, cut out three angel stars until I developed a stiff neck with concentrating and looking downward for three hours without a break, I also felt slightly nauseous.  Edward prepared a wonderful dinner of roast lamb chops, chick peas, Arcadia beans, sweetcorn and tomatoes with mash. 

 Bed early Edward to listen to the life of Winston Churchill on C.D. He was given a close work vision enhancer magnifier visor to wear while doing his ceramics and painting.

ANGEL MANDALA.

anyone for heaven? by JOHN BLANCHARD EP BOOKS

1 SATURDAY

8.55 AM. Watery sunlight.  I have a sticky right eye, it takes a while for it to open properly these mornings.  I have to rub the lens to clear the vision during the day as my sight goes smeary...  Drinking cider vinegar is difficult as it burns my throat.  Church on the beach.  We had a picnic in the sun a very enjoyable event.  When I arrived home the house had been cleaned from top to bottom by Edward a big surprise. I was thrilled to bits.  We poured weed killer on the grass to clear the infestation on lawn weeds.  I was distressed to discover insects crawling in circular patterns on the wall and ceiling of the spare bedroom.  Tiny brown thread worms in small clusters most unnerving.  I used bleach to wipe them away and clean the wallpaper.

SECRET BEING

9 MONDAY

I had the feeling a large angel was standing in the bedroom last night. A very tall personality.  I long to see supernatural beings with all my heart.  For ages now I have had the feeling a personality wearing steel coloured body armour including a helmet often stands in the right hand corner of our bedroom.  I see with my imagination. I can't think of any other way to describe the process.

10.15 A.M  We are both in bed  enjoyed a breakfast tray of delights, large boiled eggs, two slices of Rye bread toasted with two bacon slices and garlic sausage. 

 Edward says that every day begins as a good day and I am not to allow the weather to dictate its outcome.  My thinking is all wrong he says!  Years of conditioning  throughout my childhood of hearing my mother bewail the weather as personally sent to assault and disrupt her day by God whenever there was rain or wind to soak and tease her carefully manufactured curls out of their Kerby grips..  I must remember whatever the weather every day is potentially a good one.  Someone told me once that only witches blame the state of the weather on God.

But if he knows each one of us personally he must know all of our needs and when we need a hot sunny day to go about our business successfully.  

LOVING ANGELS KISSING
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ST. THOMAS'S CHURCH JERSEY, MY HOUSE SHALL BE A HOUSE OF PRAYER FOR ALL THE NATIONS.

MONDAY 9TH.

9.50. I  keep on forgetting that I am an elderly person and ought to be doing the things pensioners do.  I don't think of myself as being old until I look in the mirror which is not something I do very often these days as I avoid gazing at my face as I don't want to depress myself.  My body is not too bad for my age according to Edward.  My breasts are plump and smooth, perky is the trendy way to describe them and are the best that they have ever been.  If I were working as a life model now I would feel proud to stand naked in front of my audience. The flesh wrapped around me is slim and undamaged tanned and free from the blemishes of age, so far no cellulite at all just a sprinkling of tiny red age spots to add interest across my back apparently.  Hot flushing reminds me of my situation and brings me down to earth with a red face and beads of water tickling and trickling from under my arms and down my back. 

ANGEL FALLING OUT OF HEAVEN.   ART POSTER
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GLISS BY SCHWARZKOPF LIQUID HAIR-REPAIR WITH LIQUID KERATIN, LIQUID SILK SHAMPOO

12 THURSDAY
Full Gospel Men's Dinner at Ambassador Hotel with Frankie.
Jersey Air Show.

7.15 A.M.  Dark grey sky, rain, disappointment for airshow.  Pain in my chest down the left side under my ribs during the night while lying on my left side.  I have had the pain often before but not so severe.  Flask of coffee on waking.  I have been sneezing a lot.  Cut my fingernails in order to help with touching typing on my laptop keyboard.  Cut out three Angel Stars painting them lavender with old nail varnish they look good.

We walked together  down into town in the hot sunshine to the Grand Hotel.  Where we sat on the hotel forecourt with hotel guests to watch the airshow.  We took roast beef on Rye bread sandwiches and I bought two large glasses of wine one red one white £13.  We caught the 4.30. bus home.  Back home we rested then showered before dressing up for our evening out.  The hotel diner was very nice we both had roast turkey with all the trimmings the meal was served very late on so the talk was late in starting. 

 A family from Tennessee in America. Johnny Cash's sister and husband with family talked and sang songs written by themselves about Jesus. A pleasant evening the woman's voice was not good she struggled to sing with an old woman's croak. Spoke to Bobby and his partner.

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TIMES LEGACY BY BARBARA ERSKINE FROM REALITY, TO LEGEND, TO SECRET...

WEDNESDAY 11

Cry Shop.  9.04. AM.  Grey sky. Disturbed sleep. I have a headache. Bad dreams full of anger, my holiday suitcase's were stolen.  I had an art teaching job and I was very excited...

Headache, cool and windy day.  We took  a picnic out in our car having a very nice time.  Visiting the static air show was very interesting I took photos of the Red Arrows  entrance fee £3. each.

Edward attended the Macula eye suffers monthly meeting at Overdale Hospital clinic ordering items to enhance and aid his sight. 

I did not feel well all day...  It was good to see the aeroplanes we enjoyed the show.  Edward is very good on the history and design of aircraft.  He went up in an open cockpit Tiger Moth flying over Dunkirk in Canterbury with a pilot called Stephan.  It was very windy at Jersey airport.  I had a star photo enlarged in preparation for my next angel project. 

FIRST ANGEL POSTER

THE CELL BY COLIN FORBES, INTERNATIONAL BESTSELLER.

10 TUESDAY

8.24.AM.  Deep blue sky, bright sunshine circular clouds bobbing around overhead.
 Slept in my studio, Edward brought  me  in coffee  with my new mug and half a slice of rye bread toast. I have hunger pangs this morning.
 The last time we drove  to visit Ransoms Lifestyle showroom I bought us new ceramic drinking mugs Edwards is designer  in  cobalt blue with rows of detailed fish paintings £10. Mine white with colourful Parakeets around the bowel, it is rather jolly £6.
 I love the blue and white striped curtains hanging in my studio the colour and design reminds me of the striped tents used in the film "Henry V." starring Laurence Olivier with whom I fell in love as a teenager on seeing him in the film Wuthering Heights as Heathcliff...
Driving with Graham in my silver Smart car.  Very hot afternoon sun.  Slept and read my book all afternoon in the cool of our front room with the drapes drawn.  T.V. bed at 11.00.  Frankie telephoned.

ANGEL POSTER

THUNDER ON THE RIGHT BY MARY STEWART, BESTSELLING AUTHOR.

 9 Monday September
HOUSE GROUP. CHURCH LADIES MEETING.

9.10. AM.  Bright watery daylight filtering through the fine rain.  Everything is tinged with silver from a nights glossing of constant rain.  Hot flush as I write.  Dreamt... A man walked into our home offering me modeling work at Downtown .  He gave me a large display book filled with unrelated art objects.  We were shocked at his sudden appearance in our home while we were relaxing.
   A wedge of sunlight has just broken through the dark cloud and I can see that the wind is playing games with the front garden plants inducing their leaves to flutter and wave like little hands in its wake.  Our home has turned from stuffy summer heat to cool chilly blasts and sneaky drafts of  air tickling  my naked flesh when nipping out of bed to  visit the loo.  Edward was in and out of bed all night weeing.
 Bank transfer of four thousand pounds to my sister Catherine Gunapati at 1.30.PM.  I can hear my heart beating loudly in my left ear.
The letter N.n on my keyboard is playing up, it will not register when I touch type, so a lot of misspellings are appearing where the N is missing.

EDWARD HARRY MY DEAREST LOVE.

LEFT BEHIND, A NOVEL OF THE EARTH'S LAST DAYS. BY LAHAYE AND JENKINS

FRIDAY 6

6.07 AM.  Edward has just woken me up by singing loudly down in the kitchen.  Rain all night.  We have a thermose flask of hot coffee each at our bedsides. I am yawning with tiredness. My eyes feel gritty and both are watering...It is very dark out in the street.  The rain had given everything a shine including the road that has the sheen of a long snake with many moving eyes  lit by the  reflections  tumbling from bright lights of the early morning road traffic vehicles  unmercifully splashing the dusty pavements as they rush passed.
We went on an adventure to St Peters Life Style and Garden centre traveling all the way by bus. I am trying to educate Edward into the pleasures of bus travel, he is not convinced as his desire is to drive the car.  He keep on resisting my efforts of encouragement  at present to use the bus.  But of cause he will be forced to do so with his present eye condition before long and he will have to face up to  it.
It was sunny with a cool breeze and took us two busses to arrive at our destination.  We eat lunch in the Garden Centre cafe which was very nice and expensive.  Edward bought items for our two goldfish pond's.  It was an enjoyable trip but I got very tired and the both of us were jolly glad to arrive safely home at 4.PM.  The lawn looks good after last nights rain and a good cut from Edward.  Bed to read our books at 11.PM.

June Walton telephoned she sounded very tired and stressed out due to her home not yet completed.

SATURDAY 7

8.52. AM.  Cloudy sky white and cool.  It was so windy during the night the interior doors were rattling.  Edwards face is moon shaped due to the steroid treatment he is undergoing but he's feeling very good.  He bought himself black trousers 42"-31" for £6. from George Fashions sale they do     make him look smart.  I have finished reading the trendy novel "Fifty shades of  Grey," it was exciting but also boring, I have put it into the dustbin.

8.20.am. A flash of warm sunlight.  It is still windy and cool. 

 Charity lunch.  Out with Frankie to church book-shop celebration of forty years success.  Very tired.  I feel down as Edward's aggressive... he makes me feel so stressed. When he has mood swings.

FLYING ANGELS

LORD JESUS YOU ARE GOD.AMEN

MY PRAYER FOR TO DAY.

GOOD NEWS ANGEL

I AM WEARING MY PURPLE SKI SUIT AS IT HAS BEEN SO COLD TODAY

Thursday 5 September
Eye injection Edward.  10-45.

8.55 am  Grey sky. Heavy white cloud.  A non day. Hot sun. Bath  and shower, hair shampoo.  Drive with Graham my brother.  He has bought a white Hyundai mini-van white to transport horse fodder and equipment.  Edward quiet all day after hospital treatment, eye injection for macular deterioration.  He slept most of the afternoon.  I watched television and continued reading novel "Fifty Shades of Grey." falling asleep in front of the television.  I placed my crystal collection out in the sunshine to energise and cleanse.  Bed at 10.00 pm.  Edward mowed the grass with the petrol grass cutting machine, the weeds on the lawn are healthy there is no sign  the weed  killer we so carefully applied   has had any deathly effect  yet on any of the intruders on our lawn. 

 Edward keeps on throwing my orangutang out of our bed it is so fluffy that it makes him very hot. I also put him out on the floor during the night.  It is darker in the early evening  suddenly.  Autumn is on  its way hurriedly..

Yesterday I bought a purple ski suit from a charity shop 99 pence.  Ready for the winter, it was so cold in our home last winter both of us suffered.  I wore two pairs of trousers all day as well as thick tights.  We were most miserable and found it very hard to concentrate because of the cold.

22 Wednesday May

Cold dark grey sky.  Woke at 5.30.am. then fitful slumber till day break.  Edward woke with vertigo attack which has upset him, he is very shaken up by it.  I woke on a hot flush and am sweating hot.  WE are both disturbed by his approaching flight to England.  He whistles and sings about the home in the morning happily but I feel worried all the time.  Edward bought a lot of vitamin pills also hand-cream.  Worked in Cry shop.   We are very tired so went to bed very early.   Edward was in pain all day.  Crystal lady is called Rebecca.  Edward is not well he keeps on losing his balance and cant see with ease.  

The weather is not good Edward is becoming despondent for nice sun-shine during his holiday which is a planned fishing holiday with a boat.  He will freeze out all day in a small fishing boat, he is not used to exercise in all the rain and cold.

War in Heaven Angel

21 MAY TUESDAY

9.18.Am.  Grey cold sky.  Every thing I can see out side  through my bed room window is tinged in shades of grey.   Dreamt...I was travelling in Europe and I got off the train ahead of my party.. I did not recognize the station and became distressed.  I could not speak the language and was alone and afraid.  Two women showed an interest in my distress one offered me shelter and food in her home for the night.  I went with her... I have prayed that I may meet Anne with-the owl earrings again I wonder if I will...

I lay in bed until passed noon to complete the book by Ruth White "working with Guides and Angels."  I worked on star stands for present angels.  I felt rather bored all day.  Edward at his drawing classes.  I steamed red lentils. Vacumed  down stairs, laundry,  ironing, letter from Betty Dean.

24 May Friday

9.36.am. Heavy cloud, the sky is white, it is cold and windy.  We are still switching on the central heating most days and evening.  Edward had another dizzy spell on rising this morning.  Dreamt... I was working under ground in a large factory.  I had no pacific job but wondered among the workers talking to them.  Outside my hand bag was stolen so I took another's while asking  for mine and during my search for mine to be returned...    My head feels heavy as does my tummy as I am constipated...  Lunch together in MacDonald.  I joined the local library taking out spiritual books.  Spoke to Deborah the librarian psychic .  Bought a new blouse from M&S also Calvin Cline flowery leisure trousers.  Edward in very bad pain all day.  Feeling very dizzy and so vulnerable.  Rain, very cold we had to keep the heating on.  I am worried Edwards health is so bad.  He got lost while walking in St Helier, he is also unsteady on his feet.

FILM AGENCY PHOTO

Thursday 23 May

Sunshine, very cold. Edward had a dizzy spell and is in much muscle pain.  Ironing, vacuming. dusted and tidied the cupboard under the sink. Steamed Millet in  the rice cooker.  Chat with Graham.  Milly Wason my brother Graham's  dog ran around our house investigating the different smells in each room. I stroked her, she jumps up with excitement.  She rushed to the front door to greet Edward when he arrived home from his pottery class.  Spent a short time working on one angel.  We put up four ceramic door finger plates.  Bath. Edward was very sleepy and so tired.  He has new prescription glass's.

Edwards body will be under-stress while he is away getting up early every day walking and socializing each night will be a shock to his frame.  He will drink whisky and eat lots of meat like steak to show off only making his body react unfavourably.  He cant drink whisky any more it makes him behave in a fool hardy fashion instantly.  He just cant hold any spirits.

VIOLIN PLAYER ANGEL

20 February,Wednesday

Jane Manager of Cry Charity Birthday.
Edward eye ultra-sound at 9.30.

Blue sky, cold up at 9.00. Vacuum the home. Not good news with Edwards eye.  Cry furniture shop a woman customer told me  about her close relationship with Jesus she spoke of him with great love.  Very cold most of the day, no rain.  Frankie collected us for Christianity Explored relationship meal.  No protests from Edward,  chicken currey with rice also sweet rice pudding.  Enjoyable evening.  I saw a vision of a man dressed simply who I recognized as Jesus, while the leader of the group was talking about how Jesus has been glamorized by the modern day interpretations of him in films.  I was quite shocked at the vision Jesus was wearing a long light grey tunic and gazed at me.
 A very cold evening I went strait to bed to get warm when we arrived home at 10.30.  Neither of us slept well going out is a change to our evening patten of behaviour we find that disturbs our sleeping.
 Dreamt...My hands were white, they were covered in flour or talcum powder.  While I was  trying to lift a lump  of clay it was  heavy. A very tall man stopped me he was wearing a brown boiler suit. At my feet were broken twigs, leaves and cut branches littering the factory floor in loose piles.  As I wore only a long white fine weave robe with no shoes I decided to jump over the debris  in doing so I flew over each pile of branches floating above the floor where the debris blocked my way.  I think that the tall man was John Fisher an artist and tutor I used to admire as being a gentleman.  He had spiritual healing powers having once used them on my back while I modelled for his art class in Blackheath art school.  He was a very kind man with lots of compassion for the young students in his class's.
 Woke at 10.00.AM.  Blue sky, shining sun light.  I have a headache. Anxiety in my tummy over what the day will bring actually I have tension in my throat and feel sick...Framed my favourite painting of Edward's in an old frame once showing a painting by  my mother. Scanned the golden angel mandala's, there are twenty waiting to be finished.  Very cold wind all day.  Edwards golf lesson  was cancelled...

VIOLIN PLAYER ANGEL

CRY CHARITY SHOP 1.PM

Wednesday 4 September.

Ear, Hospital clinic,9.0 am.   7.55 am.  Purple sky with promise of sun light to come.  Flask of coffee waiting for my waking.  Very noisy commuter traffic. Alarm clock woke me, I want to leave the house shortly to be on time for my hospital appointment.  I hate rising early.  I will walk to the hospital.  I arrived at the hospital in town after a trial of very fast walking very hot and perspiring at 8.55 am.  After my treatment I sat and had coffee in the Friends canteen before exploring the shops in town.  I bought myself a navy blue flowery top £9.99. to go with my navy cotton trousers that Edward bought for me earlier this summer.  A crystal tree costing only 99 pence from a charity shop.   A crystal quarts stand with a tree of wire hung with drop beads it is very dainty and I love it.  Barbara Erskine romantic novel "Times Legacy." that will keep me happy reading for the next few weeks when I conclude my currant Colin Forbes adventure novel.  A very hot day, not much happening in Cry shop, not many sales. 

 I am lying on magnets my side of our bed, they are supposed to fill one with energy during sleep and aid healing.  I can here my heart beating loudly in my left ear this evening probably due to the micro-suction performed in my left ear this morning to clear my mastoid cavity of debris.

  It is so hot in our bedroom Edward had a very bad night, coughing and racing into the bathroom to wee and poo repeatedly.  He retired to sleep in my studio where he lay there shivering cold on the sofa bed as the bed cover is a very slim nylon.  He was unable to breath because of the hot sultry air conditions of summer.  He had also downed half a bottle of sweet white wine on top of taking steroids not a good idea.

PUBLICITY SHOT FOR AGENCY

Staying on the fence Christmas Day 1982

Sitting on the fence Christmas Day 1982

REG'S GARDEN VISIT.

3 Tuesday SEPTEMBER.

8.59 Bright deep blue sky, sunlight very merry and hopeful.  Woke at 3.am. we talked  a lot together we seem to do a lot of conversing during the night while lying in our bed together. Drank tea Edward brought up a Thermos flask of coffee for me.  I tried lying on my  studio bed but was still unable to sleep so I returned to the family bed.  Not much sleep, I feel hungry .  I have to rewash the white sheets due to marks from the washing machine soiling them during the wash cycle.  I am pleased with the growth of the fur tree from Austria and the baby Acer Palm has shot up really tall with a fine stalk.  The loft needs sorting out it is crowded with intriguingly bulging black plastic bags.  I am going to visit Reg's Garden this morning with Jill my church ladies house group leader.  I love Reg's garden it is the most famous garden in Jersey.

1982 ON HONEYMOON.

CHANGED THE BED SHEETS.

MONDAY 2 SEPTEMBER.

9.05 am.  Edward has just woken me with a hot flask filled with coffee.  He is dressed in T.shirt and blue pin striped cotton shorts ready for work in the garden.  A cool morning, white cloudy sky hints of brightness like shards of glass twinkle at the world behind the clouds... Dreamt I was drawing with a blue pen small fluffy dogs on demand for children in an art environment, the wage £120 as month.  I was struck by an exhibition on the wall of paintings with moving figures looking like animations and longed to learn the process called "Counter Collage."myself.  Tiny magnetic light inserts are embedded into the canvas activated at intervals give the illusion of a movement.  It would be wonderful if I could use the process on my Angel projects I could make the wings move and flicker.

Slept in my studio I woke feeling dizziness in my body as if it was shaking on the inside.  My right eye which is noticeably smaller than my left was sticky.  Edward is singing away happily down stairs.  I am still pleased about all the house work Edward performed while I was out attending church yesterday.

A large patch of blue sky has just appeared with a blaze of sunlight pouring down only to disappear again as quickly.  Edward is still singing down stairs .  Changed the bed covers.  Edward planted a white rose in the garden.  Big food shop at Waitrose.  Cleaned our washing machine out with white vinegar and soda crystals.  Ironing.  I climbed up into the loft and lowered  down table top cooker.  We had a bath together.  Very tired. TV. bed at 11.pm.

ON THE SEA WALL IN JERSEY 1982

Sunday 1 September

8.55 am.  Watery sunlight.  I have a sticky right eye it takes a while for it to open up fully these mornings.  I have to massage the lenses to clear the vision during the day as my sight in that eye suddenly goes smeary..Drinking cyder vinegar is difficult as it burns my throat even when it has been watered down.    Church  on the beach.  We had a picnic in the sunshine a very enjoyable event.  When I arrived home late afternoon Edward had cleaned the home as a big surprise. I was thrilled to bits.  We poured lawn weed killer on the grass hopefully to clear the infestation of weeds.. I was distressed to discover insects crawling in a circular patten on the wall of the spare bedroom.  Tiny brown thread worms in small circular clusters a most unnerving encounter.. I used bleach to wipe the wall.

IN THE ROYAL SQUARE JERSEY C.I

LAURA ASHLEY DRESS 1982

HOW TO AVERT MAJOR PANIC

WHEN WATER IS FLOODING OUT OF your WASHING MACHINE ALL OVER YOUR NICE CLEAN FLOOR.

Fill the soap dispenser with two cups of soda crystals one in each channel.  Run machine on longest hotist cycle.  Then fill drum with white vinegar 500 mls then run again on hotist and longest cycle for a almost new interior of clean machine.

SATURDAY 31 AUGUST

9.30.AM.  Blue sky, cool.  Charity Lunch in St Helier.  I bought new shoes for £3. for myself also shoes for Edward £6. in George Fashions shop sale.  Manuka 100% honey £6. 63. half price. Face serum £18.   I travelled into town on the bus it is a nice trip as the stop is only twelve yards from our front door I always alight outside Boots the chemist.  The new rose for the watering-can is no good it cracked on its trial usage £3.99. wasted.   I still feel down and tired...I feel lonely.  

 Dreamt... I was modelling and living in an Art House.  I have to visit the loft to bring down the table top electric oven stored there since our arrival in Jersey seven years ago.  I will have to lower it down through the ceiling hatch inside  a duvet cover as it is to heavy for me to lift.  I will slide it along the rafters to the hole.  Pain in my knees kept me awake last night I had to remove from our bed and sleep on the sofa bed in my studio...

28 WEDNESDAY

Cry shop. A charity raising funds for children in Romania.

8.03. am.   My lower back is very painful and I have a snuffly nose.  Deep blue sky, dark shadows the people walking down the road are not wearing coats so there cant be much wind.  Edwards back and shoulders are rosy red in colour from yesterdays sunshine.  The lawn has a glossy look, the green  has a distinct shine from the hours of watering from the newly repaired water sprinkler. 

 Charley the old man who resides in the house across the road from us is sitting in his front room window.  It is no wonder as should he look up  first thing in the mornings he would catch gimps of me naked each as I slip out of bed to pull aside the window drapes.  But being an old man I doubt  if he would even  notice my state of undress, he waves to me some times.  He only goes out occasionally,  Edward discovered he drives to Albert pier for breakfast coffee at the life boat hut with his wife.  It is a good cafeteria run for the dock workmen and followers.  11.PM.  I feel so bored.  Edward bought me a pink garden watering can.  Driving with Graham.  Edward says that he feels younger and happier from the steroid treatment.

A VERY SPECIAL LUNCH TIME TREAT PREPARED BY EDWARD FRESH JERSEY LOBSTER

27 TUESDAY AUGUST

CATHERINE TELEPHONED, SHE MAY VISIT JERSEY FROM MALAYSIA NEXT WEEK.

9.11.am.  My body is reeling with heat.  I am drowning in heat from a hot flush.  I feel weak with torment from heat every part of my flesh is damp with perspiration my head is spinning and I am breathless my tummy  painful heaving with stress. 

 Dreamt... I was in charge of a cafeteria but the staff including Edward were no help to me at all.  The waiting customers had to serve themselves as I could not cope.  I sacked all the staff that were no good intending to try running the cafeteria again at a latter date...

  Pail blue sky watery shadows.  Edward has taken to shaving while sitting on the side of our bed...Very bright sunshine...  My lower back is painful after all the vacuum cleaning...I worked in the garden pulling weeds I raked the lawn and mended the water-hose connection the the lawn sprinkler.  Edward worked in the garden attacking the weeds with me then  washed my car at my request, it looks shiny.  I cleaned upstairs in the bedrooms and filled washing machine.  I have too piles of cloths waiting to be smoothed and put away afterwards I find that particular chore so dull.  Edward wore a mask over his mouth while working in the garden.  It made it easier for him to till the soil and cut the grass protected from the pollen.  His breathing was good much improved.

EDWARD WITH HIS PRIZE PINK ROSE IN OUR GARDEN